Friday 17 January 2014

Dublin Drabble 11/01/14

I spent last Sunday in Dublin between the BT Young Scientist's and a small bit of retail therapy. I've learned that retail therapy doesn't work on me the same way it does most people. I spent nearly €26 on books in Eason's which is something I never do. And I really don't need any of those books. I love reading and I want to spend more time reading this year but I feel guilty about spending so much money on unnecessaries. (Not to mention the amount of unread books I already have.) Especially with the amount of homeless people I saw on the streets of Dublin. They have to beg to have enough money to buy themselves a meal because no one will employ them because they can't provide a home address. It's a vicious circle. And here I am walking past them in my River Island shoes carrying a bag of paperbacks that will just continue to pile up on my shelves. It makes me want to give away everything I own. Live with the bare essentials. But I concede, I am a hypocrite.

My mum, my sister and I had lunch in a tiny, sardine-tin of a cafe with tables that came just above our knees and obstructively wide armchairs. My sister and I ended up squeezing into two seats just adjacent to a corner table on my left at which a young woman was immersed in a book and a hot beverage of some kind. My mother sat in the chair opposite her as it was the only remaining one in the shop. There were about two inches between our two tables and a small aisle just wide enough for a person to pass down between my table and another on the right. Try to picture us in this squashed little room that smelled of coffee and paper and cakes. Are you jealous yet?

Anyway at this particular table to my right there was seated an elderly woman also reading a book. A few moments after we had settled down a man arrived with two beverages and a slice of fruit cake placing them on her table. He then asked her if she took sugar or milk in her beverage which I assume was tea or coffee, I wasn't paying full attention at that point. She took it black though whatever it was. This was the first thing that struck me as strange about this couple, they clearly weren't well acquainted. This became even more apparent when they began speaking. The woman had a vaguely American accent but it wasn't as strong as if she had lived in the country her whole life so I'd wager she moved there in her adult life. From their conversation, which was not a comfortable encounter, I gathered that the man had a daughter who worked in writing educational textbooks somewhere in Ireland and that the woman also had a niece in the same line of work. The woman talked a little about Florida where she lived and the weather and all those boring things that must be discussed before getting down to the important business. I'd take a guess and say that she had come home to Ireland for a funeral perhaps but I'm really just chancing my arm, if I'm honest.
I unfortunately did not stay long enough to learn what reason they had met up for. Damn those civilised people and their small talk.

Wednesday 8 January 2014

Breaking Down

Yesterday was the first day Back after the Christmas holidays. I have to say it was the worst day I've had in years. I can't quite say why. Nothing in particular happened but then those do tend to be the days I hate most.

I seem to be coming to terms with my inner Slytherin. Pottermore may have sorted me into Gryffindor two years ago but I cant say I feel any connection to that house anymore. Maybe I've changed, maybe I used to be brave at heart or maybe I unconsciously cheated on the quiz. Whatever it was I don't feel Gryffindor. I struggled to accept my place in the house when I was first placed there. I'm not really sure if I did finally fit into that persona or I just convinced myself to Gryffindor the fuck up and embrace the house chosen for me. I don't know why I place so much importance on my Hogwarts house. Harry Potter had such a massive impact on my childhood. I can't imagine who I'd be today if I had never read them.

I don't know reader, I don't know. There is so much I don't know. I feel like I've broken a wall inside my head and let out some terrible monster. I'm worried what it's going to do to me.


Thursday 2 January 2014

Resolutions 2014


  1. Read: I have acquired an inordinate amount of books that I have not read. They have been taking up space on my bookshelves for years and it's time I read them. By the end of this year I plan to have read every book that I own.
  2. Blog: I want to blog regularly and frequently throughout 2014. The plan is to blog every Wednesday from now until June when I will reassess my goals.
  3. Study: I want to improve my grades this year. In August I decided I was going to do my absolute best in every subject. I now realise how ridiculous an idea that was. Firstly, how can anyone know what there best is? I'm not sure that's something I am actually capable of discovering. So my new aim is to study with the belief that I'll get a A in everything. As of now I'm confident that that is something I can achieve. I may prove myself wrong but that's the whole purpose of this exercise. By May I intend to get 7 A s in my summer exam.
  4. Be Tidier: Every Saturday I'm going to hoover my room. In order to hoover you need to clean up the floor so that will help motivate me. Yep.
  5. Be more organised: Have every moment of my life timetabled and follow it. I got a smart phone for Christmas (Sony Xperia) and I have a planner app. So now I can be on my phone and actually feel like I'm being productive. I have a timetable made out for every day of the week to help me stay focused and prioritise my tasks.
Additional Resolutions:

  1. Wear more colour: I normally wear a lot of black because I'm too lazy to bother thinking about what colours work well together. Wearing bright colours make me feel more vibrant and puts me in a better mood, when they coordinate of course. Obviously I don't have much choice over the my school uniform but I can still wear nail varnish. And that's what I plan to do. Wear nail varnish every day. That'll brighten my life up foo shoo.
  2. Poetry: I've discovered a new and beautiful love of poetry this year. I have always really like how poets make the words flow with such rhythm but I learned more about it this year. Specifically spoken word poetry which my friends introduced me to a couple of months ago. I want to read, write and listen to more poetry this year. Lots more.
  3. Play piano: Were going to try this again this year.
  4. Learn ukulele: Ditto.
DON'T GIVE UP JUST WORK HARDER!!!
happy new year y'all.